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  The Ultimate Choice

  By Lisa C Hinsley

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  Coombe’s Wood – US

  My Demon – US

  Coombe’s Wood – UK

  My Demon – UK

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Elijah

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  One Life For All

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  A Quest for Death

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  Chapter 27

  Chapter 28

  Redemption

  Chapter 29

  Chapter 30

  Chapter 31

  Chapter 1

  This is it, Cassie thought. No going back now.

  Her guard opened the door and when she didn’t move, shoved her through. Cassie stumbled into the studio and for a moment stood motionless, blinded by the bright lights. Her guard stepped forward – probably to give her a second shove. She glared at him. “Bog off,” she said under her breath, and turned to face the audience, her question cards grasped firmly in one hand. She fixed her hair and straightened her shoulders before walking to the top of the centre aisle. She’d heard someone calling it the walk of death. Seemed appropriate. Her heart gave a flutter as she took in all the people around her – and remembered the millions watching from their homes.

  Bob Devine stood waiting for her on the stage, a theatrically large grin aimed her way.

  A group to her left shouted, “Be Devine! Be Devine! Be Devine!” Bob Devine smiled their way and gave a curt bow. The group erupted into a roar of cheers, before taking up the chant again, even more people joining in – “Be Devine! Be Devine!”

  The announcer’s voice boomed out of the speakers: “Come on down, Cassie O’Neil. It’s your time to make The Ultimate Choice!”

  The theme music changed subtly and the volume increased. The audience shushed, they realised what this meant – as did Cassie. This was her cue. She flicked some hair off her shoulders, and strode past the gaping faces.

  Devine threw his arms out as she approached. She climbed the steps onto the stage and as previously instructed into his embrace. He put a hand on each of her shoulders and held her back, as if trying to give the impression she was somewhere between long-lost family and an old lover. He leaned close and placed a kiss on her cheek. Somehow, Cassie resisted grimacing.

  He wrapped an arm around Cassie’s shoulders and led her to the stool. “Come sit down, love.” The audience was up in their seats, catcalling, clapping, and whistling. Bob Devine waited for the noise to abate enough to be heard and said, “What a wonderful day. What a wonderful gift!” The audience echoed his words.

  Cassie hopped up, cards now grasped with both hands and held to her chest.

  “Welcome to The Ultimate Choice, Cassie. This is, of course…” he waited for the audience to join him, “…the show where the donor makes the ultimate sacrifice and the winner gets to live.” He smiled at the audience, giving them a chance to calm down before he turned back to her and said, “How are you feeling, my love?”

  A camera zoomed in on her. Cassie knew from watching the show that behind Bob Devine, the big screen had dropped The Ultimate Choice logo and her close up loomed for the audience. The theme music faded out, and the theatre waited for her response.

  “Fine I guess… nervous,” she said and let out a tittering laugh. A blush rose on her cheeks.

  “Well it’s all happening for you tonight, isn’t it, love?” The host glanced out at the audience. “And aren’t we going to have a fantastic time!”

  The crowd cheered and a shower of rainbow coloured confetti rained down.

  A man sat near the front let out an ear-piercing whistle and shouted in a strong northern accent, “Go on, Cassie. Show us how to die with courage!”

  Bob Devine turned to one of the cameras and said, “Well, as you are all aware, the object of the game is to save the most worthy…” the presenter paused dramatically, “…and you, the audience, and everyone at home must decide.” The crowd applauded. “But before we start let’s find out a little bit more about our Cassie.”

  Cassie smiled nervously at the presenter.

  “So where are you from, darling?” He gave her what she imagined to be one of his photo perfect smiles, his best pose – presenting his straight, white teeth and close-shaved face at their most attractive angle.

  She cleared her throat, surprised at how loud the sound came across through her microphone. “Um, I’m from Wembley.”

  “And very nice it is out there,” he said and placed a hand on her shoulder. He leaned in close, so she could smell the scent of liquorice on his breath. The odour sparked visions of her youth – it had been so many years since she had tasted such a delicacy. He turned to the audience and said, “And what did you do for a living?”

  Cassie squinted at the bright lights. “I, uh, am a seamstress.”

  “And you were a shut-in…?”

  “Yes, Bob. I spent the last six months as a shut-in because of…” She scanned where the audience should be. The stage lights reduced all but the first couple of rows to shadows. She cleared her throat again. “I was ill with depression.”

  “Okay. As you all know…” Devine paused as the crowd gave a deafening applause. “The name of the game here is death.” He waited solemnly, his hand still resting on Cassie, the everlasting-smile gone for a moment. When he started to speak again, it was with a contrite quality. The audience fell into a respectful silence, watching Devine, mesmerised. “Our contestant Cassie,” he patted her shoulder, either ignoring or not noticing as she shrunk away from the host’s touch, “chose to die. We will give her a certificate to legalise her suicide and in return, she is given a chance to ask questions, to help the public with their choice as to who receives her precious organs. Waiting are three possible recipients for each major organ – pre-selected for compatibility, and of course, proximity to the top of the waiting list.”

  He smiled for the camera and tightened his grip on Cassie. Did he think she was going to run away? A sweaty little man ran past on the walkway that separated the stage from the seating. He clapped, encouraging the people to join in, and with each lap the man ran, the audience grew louder. The volume of the music also increased, the whole effect creating a sensation of unreality. Cassie glanced up at Devine. He looked like a bullfrog who had spotted a fly. She followed his gaze to a girl in the front row.

  “All our contestant needs to do is ask a question, which each potential candidates will answer. The result is up to you good folks at home. Pick up your phones, vote for the person you want to save. Cassie, of course, can veto one choice only.” Bob Devine gazed around the audience, smiling widely. He pointed into a camera. “Remember, ten percent of the profit from your phone calls goes to the person or persons of our Cassie’s choice.”

  His hand was still on Cassie’s shoulder. He squeezed and caressed, rubbed at her jumper so her flesh underneath crawled. She hated his touch. Cassie wished his whole arm would fall off dead.

  “So Cassie, what lucky person will be receiving your share of the money earned tonight?” Devine asked. He still stared into the audience – at the girl in the front row. C
assie watched as the host winked. The girl’s face lit up and she clapped even harder, her eyes wide and bright. He tore his attention away from the girl’s and said, “Family, friends? Perhaps a charity for a children’s cancer ward?”

  As if on cue, people out in the audience sighed.

  “Or possibly a shelter for abandoned cats?” There were a few scattered laughs at that comment. What planet does he live on? Cassie thought. Only the working cats were left, the rest had starved – or been eaten long ago. A cat shelter? Who would be so insane as to finance one of those?

  Devine turned back to Cassie. He was waiting for an answer. The audience grew increasingly restless, jeering, whistling. Someone started thumping their feet – three thuds, rest, three thuds, rest. Others joined in until the beat shook the stage.

  “Come on love, don’t be scared,” Devine said, and squeezed her shoulder.

  Cassie glanced at him, then into the mass of seething black shadows behind the first two rows. “The money will go to my parents. They suffered enough because of me. At least they can get one good thing. Now, that is. At the end.”

  “Wow, your mother and father must be proud of you.”

  Cassie shook her head. “I wouldn’t know. We’ve not spoken for over two years,” she said quietly. “There were problems…” The crowd hushed, hanging onto her words. When people signed up as a contestant on The Ultimate Choice and walked on that stage, it was because there was a story – a juicy, pain-filled story, and they couldn’t wait for her to tell all.

  “Is that how the depression started?” Bob Devine asked Cassie. He finally released her shoulder. She breathed a sigh of relief, even as he grabbed her hand. For a moment, she stared, blinking hard and taking a deep breath as she tried to stop the tears that blurred her vision. Her jaw worked, but no words came out. Tears brimmed and trickled down her cheeks. Cassie leaned over, sobbing quietly, her question cards held up to block the camera.

  Bob Devine stepped away from her side. She adjusted the cards until the host was captured in her peripheral vision as he turned to the audience and indicated they help. The page dashed past the restricted view she had of the stage, his arms were flapping as he tried to work the crowd.

  “Come on, Cassie!” a lady shouted out. Was one of the cameras zooming in to this woman? Cassie kept the cards tight to her face.

  Then seconds later: “We want to know!” The voice sounded younger – possibly a girl.

  Suddenly voices tumbled over one another, all desperate to be the loudest, all calling for one thing, for Cassie to speak, for Cassie to tell all.

  She lowered the cards slowly down, wishing a camera wasn’t pointed right at her, knowing one would certainly be inches from her face. Cassie stared into the inevitable lens and put her hand up. The crowd silenced, many with mouths agape. Waiting.

  “You want to know what happened?” People nodded, their attention fully on her. “I got pregnant.”

  Gasps echoed around the theatre.

  Cassie took the handkerchief offered by Devine and patted her eyes. “I wasn’t given any approval.” Cassie gazed out into the audience, to the black shadows at the rear of the room. “I didn’t even have a husband.”

  There were a few more gasps. Tuts of disapproval joined the general rumble of the crowd.

  “At first I didn’t understand what was going on. Then I hid the pregnancy until the baby was term. The authorities only discovered him when he was a week old.”

  “Him?” Bob asked.

  “Jack. I named him.” Cassie stopped talking, eyes focussed on the floor. Yellow gaffer tape marked the positions where she and Bob would need to stand as the show progressed.

  “Then what happened?”

  Bob was squeezing, rubbing her hand – like a giant slug, his palms sweating on her skin, leaving trails. She swallowed down a wave of nausea.

  “I gave the baby up. No choice. They don’t give you a choice. Were you aware of that?” She glared under the lights and into the audience. “I had to stay indoors after I got too big to hide the bump. Had the baby alone in my flat. Giving birth was the scariest moment of my life. And then, then some horrible person dobbed me in. Maybe they heard Jack’s crying. Maybe my constant absences alerted them.” She glanced up at Bob Devine. “The secret police took him from my breast. He squealed, cried for me. My parents disinherited me. Not that we’d talked for months.” Cassie turned to the camera. “Mum, Dad, I realise society doesn’t give you a choice. Giving him to you was the only way to keep Jack.” Her voice stronger now, she said, “I forgive you.”

  Her breath hitched and Bob plucked the handkerchief from the floor where she must have dropped it and handed it to her.

  “You’ve only got yourself to blame!” an old woman in the front row shouted. The man in the next seat tugged her back down.

  Cassie squinted out into the dark shadows of the audience. Dark, but moving – an undulating, unfriendly mass.

  A small screen, visible only from the stage, showed a girl with a shock of bright red hair accentuating her too-thin face. She shook a finger towards the stage. “Shouldn’t have been a hussy. Got what you deserved if you ask me!” She sat back down. “Be a good citizen and you can’t go wrong. Am I right? Am I right?” the girl asked. Those around her nodded. She looked directly into the camera and said, “You listening, Britain?”

  Back on stage, Cassie half-stood. Why was she here? To be abused by random self-righteous people? The exit to her left beckoned. Who knows, there was a small chance she’d make it past the security, this shame, in front of millions, was too much to bear. Bob Devine got to her before she made a bolt for it. He held her down and muttered, “Ignore her,” quietly in one ear.

  “No! How dare she!” Cassie threw off Devine’s hold and strode to the edge of the stage, her question cards fluttering to the floor behind her. “Why are you all yelling at me?” She pointed into the audience. “Okay I shouldn’t have had sex, but I had no idea I’d fall pregnant. By the time I realised I had a bump, felt his movement, all these hormones were rushing around inside of me.” She caressed her now flat stomach. “You can’t understand how hard the decision to abort is, no idea at all. I’d like to put any of you in the same situation and see if you’d handle the pregnancy any differently.”

  Bob was at her side again, flashing his perfect smile to his adoring audience. Cassie restrained her fists as he said, “But love, you were surely aware sex before marriage is illegal. To be fair to the lady who spoke up, you should never have got into that predicament.” Bob put an arm around her and tried to lead her back to the stool.

  “Like you held onto your virginity until you married Lucinda.” Cassie wrestled away from his grasp. In the wings a burly man stepped into view, watching her. “And all of you, sitting so sanctimoniously out there in the audience while you wait for me to dissect myself for the show. Why not have a quick chat amongst yourselves and guess which celebs are behind the screen. Or a politician? Haven’t you ever noticed that? There’s rarely some low caste woman from East London – and if there is, she never wins. The winner is always the high-ranking minister or an actor from such-and-such show. Or their wives and husbands, their sickly kids while the rest of us are really dying! They all want to live forever while the rest of us fade away.”

  Bob Devine had his hands on her shoulders. “Come on Cassie O’Neil. Are you finished now?”

  Cassie struggled free and stalked back to her stool. Someone had gathered up her question cards and placed them on the seat.

  “The show will be all over soon, love. You are making The Ultimate Choice, giving the Ultimate Gift. Do you remember what that means?” The crowd roared their appreciation.

  Cassie burst into tears. “It means I die.”

  Chapter 2

  “You okay to go on now?” Bob patted her gently on the back.

  Cassie took a jagged breath. “Yes.” She nodded and glanced up at the host.

  “Tell us what’s going through your mind.”
r />   What, that she wished Bob Devine would shrivel up and die, that a door would open and she could walk back into her old life? That her son Jack was never taken away, and her mother didn’t hate her. Instead, Cassie said, “I guess I just couldn’t handle giving up my Jack. Maybe I’ve got postnatal depression?” She stared at her hands, the cards loose in one hand, Bob’s handkerchief scrunched up in the other. “But I had to make a choice. My life or his. That’s the law, isn’t it?” She gazed out at the audience, wide-eyed, tears drying on her cheeks.

  What if there was some alternative – she’d misunderstood something, a nuance of the law that would put Jack back in her arms. A chance she didn’t need to die for him. Not an order, a punishment that required her to be here.

  Then Devine spoke, “A life for a life.”

  Cassie stared at him silently for a moment. “Our world is too full.” She repeated the government propaganda. “My stupidity put a strain on the already struggling food chain. When the authorities found Jack, they offered me a choice.” She drew in a deep breath. This is what the researcher for the show had ordered her to say. “He deserves to be more than I could be.” She dried her face and wiped her nose with the handkerchief.

  “You are a star, Cassie.” He thumped her on the back, the crowd roaring their appreciation. “And I think, somewhere inside, you already know that. Folks, will you put your hands together for this wonderful gal of ours. Cassie is our very own superstar, who is willing to sacrifice herself. They don’t come much better.” Bob pulled out another hankie and dabbed under his dry eyes.

  The audience applauded, screaming, whistling. The noise deafened Cassie. She retreated into the dark recesses of her mind, back to a few weeks ago as she holed up with Jack after his birth, feeding him on demand. But there never seemed to be enough milk in her breasts. Those days were so serene, a dream impossible to repeat. The audience reached a crescendo, blowing away the image of her son.